I had honestly been a little afraid and nervous leading up to the time that she had been born. She was the first little baby in our group of friends to arrive since Mike and I have been real deep into the process of trying to get pregnant ourselves. I thought it would be too emotionally overwhelming to go up to the hospital to see her and our friends. I thought I would barely be able to be there for five minutes and wouldn't wantto go back again. However, everything was completely different from that. From the second I held her I was totally smitten. I was addicted and in love!! I couldn't have enjoyed being around her more and couldn't have been more happy for our friends. In fact, I was so in love that I spent 5 hours up at the hospital with her the next day!
By all means, being there definitely made me want one of my own even more, but not in a sad or depressing way. Simply in a "Oh my gosh, she's so stinking cute, I must have one!!" type of way. I am thrilled for our friends to have this beautiful daughter in their lives and anticipate even more the day that God reveals to me what He has planned for my life.