New Year's Resolution?

Some make them, so don't. If they're made, all struggle to keep them, but I don't think this should ever stop us from making a new one. It never hurts to set goals for yourself to stretch and change, no matter how many times you fail to keep it. What matters is that you tried.

So my goals for myself? Patience. And understanding of God's will for my life. I know that I will certainly need this in the month's ahead.

Just a little over two weeks ago I had an exploratory surgery performed which resulted in me being diagnosed with endometriosis. I met with my doctor on Wednesday to discuss treatments available. She sat down with me and told me I was at a Stage 2 of 4 and then said, "We can either give you a series of shots called Depo Lupron or you can get pregnant right now." Pregnancy seems to somehow cure this disease, although it can be difficult since infertility is a symptom. Now, while it would have been fun to go to Vegas this weekend to get married and pregnant on doctor's orders...I went with the shots. :)

These are a series of shots that I will take once a month for the next six months. It will chemically induce me into an early menopause. This will stop the endometriosis from growing as long as I am on the shots. I will have the typical side effects of menopause such as mood swings and extreme hot flashes. There is also a common loss of bone density while on these shots.

I feel confident and comfortable with my decision. It seems like the best answer right now. The only thing I struggle with at times is how difficult it will be to be a 21 year-old in menopause. But it's what needs to be done, therefore I am ready for it. I know it won't be easy, especially since I am asking God for patience and understanding. I know without a doubt that He won't just give that to me, but give me opportunities and situations to be patient and understanding. Like I said, I know this will be a trying six months, but with Him I feel fully ready for it.