We're at a frustrating standstill right now. Which is especially frustrating because really, we haven't even been able to do anything to truly get started yet. A while back I mentioned that one of the doctor's I work with adopted his daughter several years ago. He recently gave me a phone number for a local adoption attorney and encouraged me to give her a call. He did warn me, however, not to call her unless we were really ready to move forward with all of this. He said most people get a baby through her in about 2 months and he's even seen someone get a baby in 48 hours!
As you can imagine, I was thrilled to get her number! I couldn't wait for the next open opportunity I had to give her a call. But, that was about 4 weeks ago and we have yet to call her. Simply because we cannot figure out if we can afford to do this or not. We can afford to have a baby, yes. But we cannot afford to buy a baby. At 23 and 24 years-old we are trying to figure out how to spend $10,000+ and possibly go into major debt, all so we can become parents. It's a little stressful, to say the least.
So we're taking some time right now to just rest. And think. And count our pennies. And pray. It's been so, so hard to be in this stage of things. It drives me crazy feeling like I'm doing nothing proactive right now for this long journey we've been on to become parents. But I must learn to rest in the Lord and His timing. I know that everything will turn out perfectly because of Him, but the process is very frustrating right now. Prayers from all of our friends would be much appreciated.