A month ago we were told by my doctor that we would most likely never conceive on our own, or through IUI. That left the options of building our family through either IVF or adoption. When I first heard this I had such a strong desire to be pregnant. I wanted to create life myself, feel life growing inside of me, and give birth to that life. I have dreamed of being pregnant since I was a little girl. It's simply what I've always seen myself doing, multiple and multiple times. ;)
However, in this past month I have not been able to get adoption out of my head. Or maybe I should say more accurately, God has put adoption in my head and won't let me stop thinking about it. It's definitely been an interesting month thinking through all of this.
We've always known if we go the adoption route that we would use this agency (don't really want to write out the name so that my blog won't show up when the agency is Googled). I have started talking a little bit with them through email and gotten the initial paperwork to fill out. The only hinderance for now, as I have previously mentioned, is the fact that the hubs no longer has a job past mid-August. We wouldn't be able to get approved financially for this process until there's something concrete in place for when his summer job ends.
So that's where our focus is for now...find another job! He's really interested in doing something with his degree (Broadcast Journalism), so if anyone knows of some radio jobs out there let us know! It's definitely been a struggle to suddenly be so ready to pursue this, but have to wait because of the job situation. Sometimes it's really, really hard to imagine what God is up to when the "getting there" is so difficult right now, but we know and trust that the end result will be amazing!